tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17293566508373447612012-02-16T12:39:43.036-08:00Jennifer Y. D'Hondthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07433811269548922409noreply@blogger.comBlogger21100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1729356650837344761.post-72680094842896116762010-09-09T19:37:00.001-07:002010-09-09T19:37:24.721-07:00i am at the bar and i feel invisible to everyone......i dont know whats wrong with me and why im not good enough but oh well i guess maybe one day ill b good enough for someone and someone will care enough to notice me in the background.....i guess for now ill just sit in the background....<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.5.8</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/1729356650837344761-7268009484289611676?l=jenndhondt.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Jennifer Y. D'Hondthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07433811269548922409noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1729356650837344761.post-26517826676634372562010-09-05T21:34:00.001-07:002010-09-05T21:34:27.694-07:00<p> <p> <p> <p></p> <p style="width: 429px; height: 67421.19%"> <p>how many times will i feel this way before it finally goes away? how much longer am i going to feel like i’m not good enough? i just want to feel like i mean something to someone. feel like i’m a worthwhile person and that i have some kind of purpose in this life. i feel like everything i do is a mistake and that i will never get on a path for a successful future. my life in a the last few weeks have been a rollercoaster that has been filled with great highs and devistating lows. </p> </p> </p> <p>i think i have finally realized that the guy that i would do anything for and who i am in love with will never want me. i don’t know why i’m not good enough but i guess i’m not supposed to know. and i guess in some way it’s not meant to be, but that doesn’t make it any less painful. i’m also afraid to move on cuz i dont’ feel like anyone can compare to him. plus i don’t want to put anyone through pain becuz of how i feel for him and i know that if he were to come around that i would choose him. i just wish he felt for me the way i feel for him. </p> </p> <p>i moved back in with my parents and though i know it’s the right thing to do but i really can’t help feeling like now that i moved back in here i’m not goin’ to hear from my “friends” anymore. and i know that i have to miss out on a lot of things cuz of work but idk….i just feel like they don’t want me around. maybe i’m just thinkin’ too far into everything i don’t know but it’s really getting me down. </p> </p> <p> <p>and then my own dog doesn’t even want me. he wouldn’t even come and say goodbye to me before i went to work. and i know it’s an animal and i probably shouldn’t be as hurt as i was but i was devastated. he’s my best friend and i just felt rejected by him just like i feel rejected by everyone else. </p> <p>maybe i’ll just go to bed and try to get over these feelings. maybe one day i will be good enough for someone. g’night……</p></p> <div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/1729356650837344761-2651782667663437256?l=jenndhondt.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Jennifer Y. D'Hondthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07433811269548922409noreply@blogger.com0